emotiona post: recap, improvisational explaination of the irrational.
i love improvisation because i love control. i love to know that i have the freedom to complete or to reenter, to control the dynamics, to control the resolution. i am free to express my creative juices.
when i am frustrated, or any of the bad relation i might get with my journal's current namespace, i don't feel like i have control over the situation. i try in vain, and silence does not help. that is the worse pain anyone can ever have. not whether the derivative is negative, but not having the derivative at all...
understand? and that's all the doubleanti i feel we might need. so do my posts and my Self make sense? thank you for your tyme...
