I have been producing things in PCs for 10 years. First web design, then programming, a while back SEO. Now I don't know what to do next.
I made more then $1 million from a few websites thanks to God. Got a few national awards in competitions. In past my motivation was money or interest but now its not.
After begin computer science in university, I realized that I am not really enjoying programming or learning programming. I enjoy producing things that are valuable or big. I enjoy the process of producing and seeing the outcome I guess. I don't like learning programming related things for the sake of programming.
When I need to do achieve something in my project, I search about it and I learn how to reach to that. Either I do it myself or find someone else's work and apply it. I don't care about programming itself.
I think this is because I realized that if I start a career as software engineer, the company I work for will make much more money than I do from my work. Meanwhile I do the hard work for them. They will just manage me, set deadlines, provide safe and fun environment etc. but the bigger piece of the pie will belong to them.
Also, I will think my ** off for little details that doesn't matter in the big picture. But if I use my energy on bringing the parts together instead of working on little details I feel like outcome for me will be much more great. I don't know if this is a delusion or not
Considering that I can't just be happy programming, and I don't know where to go.
Recently I tried to produce some things in iOS environment but I really got bored and stop. However, I remember I was spending 14 hours on a computer learning ASP in past.
I feel like the best thing I can do is to be patient for 2 years to finish my uni. Meanwhile I make more friends that could be my coworkers in future. After I finish uni, I work on my projects for a couple of years. If things go bad financially, I focus on programming again and start working as a software engineer.
Can you share some thoughts that could be helpful?