Thanks for the support, friend. Well sorry if it unsettles a few whatever I've said, I suppose I can't predict what would happen in the next couple of years, or decades for that matter that you might see in my situation. Hopefully things will work out, I hope my plans and my efforts are an inspiration to others though, if anything... It's just that if people realized their own mental elasticities and social and technical capabilities, they'd also feel rather good... at least my peers I'd say.
lol I work at taco treat and at least I get to chat with my fellow employees. Other than that the job is boring and I am poor compared to either an admin or programmer. So just keep on trudging is my advice.