I've been there and done that. I also spent a couple months this year debating about mental health care. The fear of being stigmatized as a 'looney' stops many people from seeking treatment for depression. Look at it like this, though... There are only a few people that ever need to know. You, your parents, and your shrink. The shrink is sworn to secrecy - he can't tell anyone about your condition. Nobody has to know unless you tell them. That can help, when you're ready for it, but you won't be called a lunatic...nobody will know...