i won't say who i am but i've been posting here for quite some time, and because of this i'm asking for some serious help. i'm never happy, i don't feel like i'm achieving things ever and i get seriously disturbed often. i'm thinking of just killing myself because i can't ever make myself happy. although i've been trying to excel and keep a reasonable outlook on life i'm still never happy. because of the way i am i don't think i will ever be able to live a peaceful life, either now or later on down the road, so i might as well just end it and spare myself the torment.
i'm in tears now and i don't know what to do. this has been going on for too long and i can't take it anymore.
if you want to know the most current problem so you can offer some type of solution, it is problems with school, i'm probably going to be kicked out of a class because i'm not doing well even though i've been trying hard. it's more complicated than just that one problem, but it is the basic fact that i can't seem to succeed that is bothering me so much. i try and try and try but i never actually succeed, like i can't do anything right. and there is so much emphasis on needing to do awesome in order to go to college and have a good life, it is like how am i supposed to have a good life if i can't do anything right and succeed?
someone out there must have thought the same things, and i desperatly need to know how you got through it.