If something makes you feel bad, get away from it.
DO NOT surround yourself with it.
As far as your schooling goes, keep trying, and find help and tutoring, it will all click, trust me.
Each obstacle you encounter will start to seem less overwhelming.
I wish you the best, and hang in there. :)
To the poster of this thread:
This thread has, as I feared it would, atracted flamer's etc. Therefore I am closing it as much for your sake as anything else.
If you would like it reopened I encourage you to PM me, I garrentee full annonimenity (sp?). If you're not compfortable doing this then start a new thread with a note on it, and I'll merge it with this one and reopen it.
I wish you all the best,